Last post I was in a yucky mucky mood. I have to acknowledge how grateful I am that I don’t go to that place very often. However, hanging out occasionally in the yucky muck definitely ups my gratitude factor for the “Glass FULL” moments. Yay for gratitude and yay for optimism 🙂
I found out a couple of days ago that I have another broken bone. When I broke the first one back in 2012, I was in SO. MUCH. FEAR. I was actually in more fear than I was pain. I could barely function in my fear paralysis. In hindsight, I think I made good decisions in a timely manner, but I continue to have a keen appreciation for how life changes in a heartbeat – one minute you think your life is going one way and ONE SECOND LATER it’s going a completely different direction. One of the many, many gifts of the first bone break is how much better of a dog trainer I became to manage my 2 year old, frenzied Boxer/Bull Mastiff mix, especially since his exuberance was the partial cause of the fracture.
This time the fear was very little. The initial pain was LOUD enough that it occurred to me I might have broken a bone. But the pain receded so much each day, I trusted that my body was healing. One month after the original injury I still limp and have sharp, jabbing pain. This is a clear and direct communication to get more information – so I did. Of the breaks that can occur in the feet, this is a good one, just a little bit of the proximal tip of the fifth metatarsal. A nice tight boot and the bone is likely to find its way back to complete healing. Yay. Even so, the direction I thought my life was going still has a lane change. I feel grateful there is no paralyzing fear. I feel grateful for the outpouring of support I have already received and I look forward to the many gifts this fracture will bring into my life.
big love and fractured gift filled hugs, j